Little baby, I am always all in
It started a lot like it would always be. A lot of work, some fear, feeling really tired, unsure if I could do it, and so much love.
Read MoreThey have taken the heart from inside you
The fire has cleared, and there they stand. Two boys, just small children, holding my heart, ready to give it to me. And even in this moment they are saying, “Let her come to me.” My anger does not give me power. Remembering who I am does. They know who I am.
Read MoreWhat you need
To others that did not know her well she probably seemed like she was just born with strength. She looked like the type of person that had courage in her DNA. But I knew that wasn't it. She called for her strength in every moment. She cried and prayed and woke up sweating for it.
Read MoreA Mother's Perfect Mistake
Either way, mistake or not, Eve did not give her children perfection, and that in itself was the most perfect thing she could offer.
Read MoreWe don't always need a solution, we just need some solidarity
Solidarity. That is a word I can get behind. Wise, brave, mature...these words seem to be hard to reach for in the lonely moments. On those lonely, long, bad days all I want is to go sit on a fellow mom's dirty floor and say, "Wow. I might not make it to bed time tonight." And hear her say, "Ya, me neither. Let's just keep throwing goldfish at them instead."
Read MoreHow my game of playing house was broken
Most days life will give me some sticky moments. There will be fights. Brene Brown says, "Choose courage over comfort." It takes a lot of courage to realize that on my BEST day I'm not perfect, and I never will be. It takes a lot of courage to accept that life will not often be comfortable. And it takes even more courage to tell your tired, hungry, stressed out wife in the middle of a noisy, crowded New York City sidewalk that there will always be fights. The surprising thing, to me, is how much more comfortable I feel in my own skin, in our marriage skin.
Read MoreI am Ripping and Creaking
But sometimes my holes feel bigger than "little." And sometimes that tear starts ripping faster. Sometimes I start to sail right into a storm, and it is like nobody even notices. Keep sailing, Mom. We need you, Mom. Keep carrying us, Mom.
Read MoreTruth in Motherhood
To the moms who are drowning in the hard days, or the moms who can’t seem to do it all, or the mom who feels like she is giving everything and nothing seems to be right…You are not alone. Every mom feels lost in moments or months or years. You may not be doing it perfectly, but just keep trying. The trying is what holds your little family together
Read MoreLeave her broken
Heaven has touched her, and heaven has claimed her heart when it received an angel from her. Her life, her being, will never go back to what it was before. She will forever be a mom loving her angel.
Read MoreBecoming a mom, not the Divine
And the fear faded. I had the chance to be something special for him, but it was pride wanted me to be everything for him. Humility reminded me whose he was. It gave me the chance to be just a mother, full of imperfect ideas, failures, and love.
Read MoreThe best gift to give yourself this Mother's Day: Authenticity
Give yourself the gift of authenticity this Mother’s Day.
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